"Ward," Maya continued
to whisper, and her angelic voice drifted in and out of the deafening
roar that filled me and shook me. And as everything crumbled down
and faded into blackness, I plunged deeper and deeper into the isolation
of my soul. There was nothing but the darkness. I was alone, so very
much alone, but I was not afraid. The darkness caressed and comforted
me. I drifted further and further inward. Then slowly I began to realize
that someone was holding my hand, leading me through the darkness
towards the light. It was like a whisper. Maya's whisper. My soul
swam with her as she led me deeper into my Self.
As we journeyed on, I
realized her whisper was filled with other voices as well. Voices
I knew so well. And they whispered that I was now whom I was Meant
to be. They whispered about the Plan to bring peace to all existence.
The Plan that I had been chosen to lead to fulfillment.
The whispers of light
bathed me in warmth, but I could not forget how I had failed, and
I would not let them touch me in my shame. I let go of Maya's hand
and I was lost, plunging into the darkness alone, sinking into a harsh
and cold reality.